if i could hold you with me

CAN I FUCKING NOT GO TO SCHOOL TMR?
SO I CAN JUST CRY TILL MY EYES EXPLODE TONIGHT OR SOMETHING?
FUCK. IVE NEVER HAD THIS FEELING IN A LONG WHILE.
AND IT JUST HAD TO COME TONIGHT.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!
SCREW IT. i'll just stay awake tonight and finish my gp and not sleep.
SLEEP. yea how the hell am i supposed to sleep when i'm feeling so fucked up.

I apologize for the missing photo update. i think i'll do it over the week end or smth.
DT's gna explode if i don't hand in my 2 weeks dued essay by tmr. i don't even feel like doing work these few days. SIGH.

it really sucks man. time is just ticking by. We got our A Levels Verification Slip today. i can't believe it's happening again. i can still hear Ms Ho's voice in my head,"Please keep your VS properly! Don't lose it ah." Gosh, that's like TWO YEARS AGO. I miss Ms Ho. and i miss mg, alot.

This year is totally crazy. FREAK! it's already APRIL, WTHHHHH. and just when everyone will say,"STUDIES FIRST, A'S ARE CRUCIAL!" but, it's hard to just push everything aside and face your notes and books everyday. it'd be really great, if i could just get back to my studying at gut with the ac/cj bunch, hanging out with the whos & vally, hockey, concentrating on what's laid for me, etc. HURHUR.
If only school will come to a halt for just another week, and let me meditate on things so i can prioritize my nonsense and just get back on my feet again.

Today Floats asked me why do i fall asleep in every lesson. Lol.
ahhh. my mind was totally switched off during physics yesterday omg yes. and today's math tutorial AND lecture i was like in wonderland walao. seriously, at this rate, i'm just gna flunk everything man.
i really need to FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
i'm frikkin trying to be stronger than this but i just see myself sliding down again.

and to see a good friend being affected so badly, it just makes me wanna cry, now. it's like, why must everything happen all at the same time !
Ferlica i hope you're alright, cheer up, please. That frown on your face will be gone soon cos things will turn for the better, and just remember we're all here.
VT, gosh, you, you'll be fine, really.

O M G. i need a White Chocolate Dream Ice Blended.

if i could do this on my own
but i can't

``jamiepok chased till the end at 12.19am