(((out with the truth, baby))): just when i thought.

life hasn't got any better. i'm not praying enough. that's for sure.
sigh.
sometimes i just wish i have my friends by my side 24/7.
or maybe i would wish that i was stuck in hongkong, like there was some problem with the immigration thing that makes it compulsory for visitors to stay there for a few months consecutive.
i miss hongkong.

left on thurs, back on sunday. with mummy and sis. stayed at marriot-pacific place, shopped a lot, ate A LOT, walked a lot, yup.

breakfast with zhixiu before hk. he left for uni at Seattle, on sat. oh wells.

all this revision schedule thing is shit.
it'll never work for me, NEVER.

what's wrong?? i don't know. i'm so tired and everything. i just feel like crying all the time. wtf?
STOP HAUNTING ME.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.

i really really miss MGS, or rather, the life at the period of time, where i'll talk about julian hee or what's on the new ch 8 show to my friends. okay maybe it's a little childish, but at least the happiness was long-lasting. why can't i go back ? why did i put myself into this shit ?

why can't i just lead my life with the usual mg girls, my ac classmates, my pri sch besties, and be a happy girl once and for all?

it'd be great if mum can just send me away to newyork or something.
really. i long to be a newyorker student, like NOW.

it's crazy. it's driving me crazy. it's affecting me like f***king badly i can't even study when i get home. i can't. at least outside, i get very minimal work done, which is better than staying at home and cry like a bitch.

Benny's really good at analyzing matters.